Goodbye Summer..

I am so gutted that Summer is almost over.

As a student at university, your summer break is just so good. It starts in May, and you don't start the next year of your studies until the end of September. You basically have around five months off. I love that.

Now, I'm not the typical university student who blows their student finance or wages from their job on a holiday in Malia or Magaluf or somewhere like that. I just love Summer. Its my favourite time of year. The warmer weather makes me happier. I get to visit my favourite place on the Yorkshire Coastline - where for some reason the weather is always beautiful when we go. I get to spend time with my family, having fun days out and enjoying the summer weather - not that its been so great this year. 

 

 

This summer I have spent most of my time looking after my nieces and nephew whilst their parents are working. Extremely tiring, but really good fun. In the first week of the summer holidays we went on holiday to my favourite place near Filey in North Yorkshire where myself, my mum and my dad had already been for a week in May. Same place, completely different holiday. In May we had the most relaxing time, it was quiet, peaceful, and just what we all needed. Then when the school broke up for the summer holidays/six weeks holidays - whichever one you call it. We went again, this time with my two nieces and my nephew. A week by the sea, just spending time with family, going on the beach, having fun in the sea, going swimming and covering my niece and nephew in temporary glitter tattoos. It was fun. Then all three of them got chicken pox. Not so fun. I feel bad that the majority of their summer holidays (they've gone back to school today) were overtaken by chicken pox and them not really being able to do much. So I tried to make the rest of it as fun as possible. We had days out at the seaside, trips to the park, fun days in the house and trips to soft play places when the weather wasn't so great. Lastly, my favourite achievement of the summer, I taught my niece and nephew how to ride their bikes without stabilisers. I was so proud.

For myself, I also bought a really good DSLR camera in May and spent the majority of the Summer teaching myself how to use it and getting out to explore the countryside and the seaside with my camera. I have loved that.

So, there's my summer in a nutshell. I have around 4 weeks left until I am back and starting my third year of my university course. I might have some more fun, but the weather seems to be taking a drastic turn for the worst. So who knows. Goodbye Summer, I'll see you next year. It's not like I'm already counting down the days or anything.. I'm not.. Honestly.. Okay, fine, I am. I'm already looking forward to next Summer. Just need the next 9 months to hurry up if that's not too much to ask.

Anyways, what did you get up to this summer? I hope you had fun.

Speak soon.

H.

Back at it..

I had a pretty hard time a few months ago.

I started feeling like I wasn't good enough, my writing, my posts, everything. I didn't feel like I had a right to be posting anything on the internet because I wasn't good enough. So I hit a wall. Metaphorically of course. I must have had around 20 or so posts written and ready to go but I just couldn't bring myself to publish them, and then in the end I just gave up.

I've been thinking.

I didn't start this blog to showcase my writing skills, or to establish a huge audience. I started it for me. So I'm back. Back to start again, back to write what I want to write about.

So in the process of starting again I kind of, removed all the posts I had written previously, I didn't really consider that if there is anyone reading this blog I no longer have an introduction to me or the blog or anything.

 

That's okay though. A fresh start is a fresh start.

 

So let me introduce me and this blog I guess.

 

Here we go.
 

I have so much to say without the confidence to say it. That's annoying. I have always been a supporter of the idea that bottling things up inside is the worst thing to do, but despite being aware of how bad I think doing that is, I do it on a daily basis, I have done it for years. A combination of not having anyone to vent to, and not having the confidence to speak up about things results in a pretty huge and full, splitting at the seams kind of bottle.

Hence, the reason I am here. I figure writing things down might be easier, might make me feel better about certain things - might just help clear my mind from time to time. The reason I have chosen a blog to do this is because I have tried a few different ways. Writing in a diary - doesn't work. Writing things down on paper and throwing it away - doesn't work. Plus, its a major waste of paper!
 

To be honest I kind of like the idea of having this tiny little corner of this GIANT room that is the internet just to go to when I have something to say, to spill my feelings out onto, to talk about things that have made me happy, things that have made me sad, what I have been up to, things that I have been through, I don't know. A bit of everything. A place for me to be me, to say what I want to say without having to worry about what someone else might think of me and what I have said. It might be quite therapeutic for me. Hopefully. 

 

For the moment, I have decided to refrain from including my identity. I feel like maybe I am more likely to get the desired effect of what I have written above by keeping this anonymous. I don't know, maybe one day I'll have the confidence to change that, but not right now.

If there was anyone reading my posts before and wondered why I just disappeared. I'm sorry. I hope I kind of answered that in the first part of this post. I'm back now and I am planning on sticking around.
 

Speak soon.
 

H.